What May Come

It is weird how different I feel from my last attempt to keep a blog. Back 2 years, traveling Asia with the D (dad) and how I think, feel and see the experiences now. Back then, only 24 months and hundreds of adventures; some more unreal than others and some more memorable than ever.


Looking back, reading my words I typed when being in Chiang Rai, Northern Thailand for too long, and now. I was cool then. I was a hard-core-bring it on-traveler. A girl who couldn't see enough, feel enough and who lived only for breathing new culture and diversities in life.

Now. Now I merely dream of thee perfect wardrobe. I want to settle down. I truly want and desire it more than I ever had in my life. I started to appreciate the terms and routines that follow when settling down..however; I cannot. Life has taken me elsewhere, taken me from a city I love more than any. A people I feel for and see myself in. A culture that constantly will keep me on my toes and a love that could take me as far as I desire. But, despite true love, despite my heart feels it belongs to Tel Aviv, the more it needs to go elsewhere.

I guess the girl I see when reading two years back, is still chasing dreams inside of me. And that is OK. Actually, more than OKAY. I love my decision to leave, I had to, I needed to and I wanted to. A very smart person once told me " Distance either blow out the fire OR it provokes it to burst out in flames". Whether this will happen, only time can tell.


Tel Aviv and Israel all in all gave me more than I ever wished for. Friends I will never forget and a love I never before felt. This is truly a gift and a gift I will cherish more than any. A part of my heart belongs to them, You. This is a fact! Thank You!


The presence of life gives me excitement; feeling on not knowing jack of what may come the next few months, not even weeks. A feeling I used to feed off, a feeling I breathed for and always could make me smile. A feeling I now need to get used to, again.


You can say I did settle down in Tel Aviv, in a way. This city is the first I stayed for that long, the first country that kept giving me a reason to wake up in the morning breathing the Holy Land's air. I almost had a wardrobe even.. but not a perfect one. This one is still to come, and this I am truly estatic about.

The Love of My Life has turned from a person to a dog. Crazy and freaky is may sound. Yet, the love I felt and now feel cannot be compared..but to be bold, they both make me smile equally. No need to interpret this saying!...


As I decided to keep this blog and actually work on it, I promised myself and friends not to "cover it up". I might not be disgustingly honest the whole way through, but I promise to be bold. Even uncensored, if I am lucky! It is time I get my word out, even "just" to YOU. But merely and heartedly to myself.


Come What May

Whatever that implies I am not yet aware of. A split feeling of nervousness does hunt me, yet if life does not follow you with a tiny feeling of this, you simply do not live life to the fullest.

Take a chance where you find a chance worth taken, I'd say.

I do not want to live life nor take in experiences that are not worth telling. And so far so good:)


So this will be the beautiful beginning of an ending and a start.
How cool would it be if you could flip the pages to the very last one to read the conclusion, or just get a feeling whether it is a happy one or not. Guess only time will tell!

And time, THIS is frigin fucking COOL!



Let the stories begin MOTEK...